*sigh* teenagers, can anyone give me some advice?

I'm 15, when i was 14(just turned) i met up with this guy who lives near me, at 13 i was just starting to get interested with guys and i thought this guy was really nice, he was 16 One night me and my friend developed a plan to sneak out and meet up with him. Our plan consisted of me going ';home'; (secretly meeting with him) then my friend was going to come down about 30 mins later to meet me so we could go back to my house. But as my friend was walking down to meet me her mum saw her out the window walking somewhere she wasn't ment to be, so acting like any mother she came flying down the road and picked us up in the car and took us home asap.





things were weird for a month or two and i was starting to realise i really liked him, whatever i did he wouldn't leave my mind and know im young.


That night me and him kissed, and being me full of excitment i told someone, i wasn't going to keep it to myself...





He started speaking to me again and one night he convinced me to sneak out to his house, to be honest i really wanted to, even when i walked to his house i was shaking with fear, fear that he might hate me. So i got to his house and quite alot for my age happened, i didn't have sex with him but it was quite close tbh.





after that night i was really worried about what had happened and i didn't know if i had done right or not, i really liked him but he told me it was for ';fun';. i know i was stupid to go along with it, but when you like someone that much you... you don't know what to do. So i told my best friend, unfortuently he told someone else and word spread.





The guy soon decided he didn't want to speak to me, but it didn't last long and i continued to go to his house...





but more people started to find out and alot of people didn't respect him anymore and he blamed me because of how people hated him.





he now refusses to speak to me at all and tells my friends he wants nothing to do with me, i know i should hate someone that put me through this, but to be honest if he killed me i'd apologize for getting blood on him.. i think i love him, but i can't!





and things are getting worse he's getting really close to one of my ';best friends'; i just can't get over him... and i really need to, i've tryed so much, i think i need help :/





i mean it's almost been two years....*sigh* teenagers, can anyone give me some advice?
Whats is it you like about this guy? You are worth much more than being disrespected. Try loving yourself before you have your heart to any boy, he is only after some ';fun'; after all. Concentrate on yourself and being with your friends, if you are trying to hard you will only attract the wrong boys, who will see as depesperate.*sigh* teenagers, can anyone give me some advice?
the part about him liking your bestfriend.





- if him and you so called bestfriend end up dating,


obviusly you know who your realy friends are.'





And falling in love with someone who dont like you backk,


is really hard.





but you got to try and stop thinking about him.


and go out and find differnt guys,





and if he blames you.


he's deffinaly not worth your time.


its his lost.





thats what i think.


Hope i helped.